shine!

2011-05-17T13:54:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time. i would like to introduce my new love here, officially.

i hope life is treating you guys all good, no matter where you are now.

2011-02-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

this is the ending song for "大切なことはすべて君が教えてくれた"

one last 15mins of the drama and im back to reality. been slacking, and i feel

insecure and guilty for it. at the same time, i feel the resistance to open the books.
:/
cvd over = syf trainings are here. i feel tired already. i watched something regarding charity
thingy in laos by channel8. they mentioned about the importance of spiritual education as essential as technical and theoretical education. mmm, i think i need some spiritual education too. lack of motivation,
though it's only march ( tml ).

haha, i think i will flip through the book of writings by ziyuan and the rest later, and then flip through
one of the many magazines i have, then do some stuff. i hope i wont be late for school anymore.
sick and tired to feel panic for school the moment i wake up. but actually, my heart is torn apart by
those cab fares. aye, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

yea, im still feeling tired mentally for school.
how.napha on tues.how.there's so much work to do, for me at least.
okay, this is the post effect of watching 大切なことはすべて君が教えてくれた

heh. i will sound happy in the next post.

2011-02-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's day. <3

there's alot i've missed these days. i need to start listening to your songs again cos
those heartthrobbingmoments was relived when i chance upon a tumblr with all your
pictures. fangirlmoments.

^^ there's alot to do too. sigh. feel like sleeping.

2011-02-03T01:09:00.001+08:00

GETTING EXCITED BECAUSE THEY'RE GONNA SHOW GANTZ AND SPACESHIP YAMATO IN SG! WOOHOOOOOOO! *prays hard for ashita no joe too.

but i guess a perfect advance gift for my birthday is a ticket to japan and watch it instead.

and that is purely impossible. zzzzzzzzz.

but still, im excited for the two films that's gonna screen. im gonna watch it even if it's me going alone. :/

that is a hint btw.
byeeeeeee ^^

2011-02-02T13:59:00.000+08:00

one experiences his most sober moments when he's drunk ; when he feels the actual intensity of emotions bottled up. no? haha, it's not me though. so... no first hand experience to know how it's like.

i watched this video regarding putting dogs to sleep ; euthanasia.
not a good way to start the new year when memories come back and.. you know? make you feel
regretful and stuff. :/

* those moments will be temporary gone when my boss brings back stuff after cny. there goes some extra cash. but it's all worth it because... those are like painkillers. alleviate the pain from reality/school/maths.....

haha. after cny, i will not ever be late for school = not taking cab to school anymore!
i will start saving for good, cos there's an event coming up in june!
i will try to maintain my room cos everything will be nothing if it gets messed up again!
yaaaa, i will start saving again, for japan trip/korea trip with ruohan and friends, or with my sis?

^^ happy new year everyone.
even though it's hard for me to be convinced that new year brings new hopes,
NEW YEAR BRINGS NEW HOPES TO YOU THIS CNY.

i hope you'll be like the bunny, taking leaps towards new dreams and goals.
same for me too,ne.

2011-01-23T14:49:00.002+08:00

handshake event at ikebukuro.

stuff like this makes me wanna work harder.there's not much link here, but someday, i wanna
be capable to attend these last-minute events. :/ im dreaming too much, yes?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHILINAAAAAA!
i hope you will chance upon this, cos despite the introduction of facebook, i still rmb your birthday.
i mean, how can i forget. :)

2011-01-10T23:22:00.001+08:00

: when your work speaks for itself, dont interupt.
see my tagboard. somehow, it's calling me to do my hw right?
it's a sign.

i bought new exercise books and files and pens and writing papers.
this is a sign too, a sign to start afresh.

words. they come out too easily.

please dont mind me writing stuff that are of irrelevance here.
they serve the purpose of reminders.

19th, release of hadakanbo.
before 24th, go kino. * impt.
26th, release of supergood superbad album.
29th, release of ashita no joe official guide book.
* collate list and contact gang. *impt.
find out bus services/price/frequency. *impt.

2011-01-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

unexpectedly, there's actually no need to worry about submission of hw today. ^^
mmm, but there's some to worry about nowwwwwww. :/

it's the season of saving again.
i will start working hard and save alottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
before march/april. dont care if it's a rumour or not, i think i should risk believing it.
cos, there wouldnt be any good timings left in the year to be distracted right? HAHAHAHA
somehow, i am excited. ( by a rumour. ) -.-

but, a part of me hopes that the rumour is not true though. sigh.
the "saving" part is a bit too tedious. T.T
but you know it will exchange for those moments of happiness.haaa, who cares if it's
instant gratification. :/ ayeeeeee, ya, i will start saving.

cos there's too many things on my mind to buy now.
no, not dresses or whatever. -.-

^^ the song is still nice.it's on repeat.well, for me at least.

2011-01-06T21:35:00.000+08:00

真冬の海辺に映った　白く透明な月が

クラゲに見えた不思議な夜でした
The white, transparent moon was reflected onto the mid-winter seashore
It was a mysterious night that we saw the jellyfish

何度引き裂かれても遠ざかっても繋がったままの
二人を包む　瞼の奥の宇宙
No matter how many times we are torn away or apart from each other,
the way we are still connected
enveloping us, the universe beneath our eyelids

星屑の中　散りばめられた　心が二つ
愛の闇を駆け抜けてく　想い　流星になり
流れていくよ　君のそばまで消える前に僕たちは同じ星座だと　信じて
In the middle of the stardust, studded with two hearts
The feelings of running away from the darkness of love will become a
shooting star, flowing
Disappearing before reaching you
I believe that we are in the same constellation

君よりきれいな人でも　君より優しい人でも
君にはなれないんだ　もう誰も
Even if there are people prettier than you
Even if there are people nicer than you
They can't be you, nobody can be

つかめない幻を抱きしめた胸を刺す痛みが
引力のように二人引き寄せ合う
The piercing pain of having embraced an illusion that can't be grasped
is like a gravitational pull that pulls us together

まだ君の中　閉じ込められた　幾つも迷いは
僕の中で燃やし尽くせる　だからもう怖がらずに預けて欲しい
You have yet to close yourself off completely,
so much hesitation
I could put out the passion inside of me
that's why there's no reason to be afraid anymore
i want to entrust it to you

君の嘘に気付くのは　小さな瞳が見開くからでも
素直さにまだ　気付けないまま・・・
Recognizing your lies allowed me to open my small eyes, however
I still can't recognize your honesty...

星屑の中　散りばめられた　心が二つ
愛の闇を駆け抜けてく　想い　流星になり
流れていくよ　君のそばまで消える前に
僕たちは同じ星座だと　信じているから
In the middle of the stardust, studded with two hearts
The feelings of running away from the darkness of love will become a
shooting star, flowing
Disappearing before reaching you
I'll continue to believe that we are in the same constellation

why so nice?

2011-01-02T00:55:00.001+08:00

everything. seemed. so. shallow.

happy new year by the way. ^^

2010-12-28T02:21:00.000+08:00

it's been longggggggggg. need to change skin for a new start. ^^

i need to be updated about many stuffs soon.
will wait for the pictures to be developed and i will scan them, along with some overdued pictures. :/

okay! i will start doing maths soon. :/
mmmm. okay. let's see if i will ever get those stuff done before 2011. ^^

2010-12-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

im back. update next time when the photos are uploaded.

too much to say and feel and type.

2010-11-29T02:07:00.000+08:00

i went to meet my cousin and her clique members. ^^ i feel blessed being able to hang out with such funny and friendly people. though there're awkward moments, but i like seeing them together and attend outings with them. ^^ happy birthday danial, my cousin's friend. i hope to see you guys soon!

psst. i went to snowcity with them long long long long time ago, and their graduation pictorial outing, and the halloween potluck, and yea, today. my sister went genting together with them though. jealous.

anyway, will be going to hk for my school's band trip. i dont really dread nor anticipate it. cos... it's a competition and.. for a piece, im not playing the timpani which i'm really confident in... so.. wish me all the best anyway. ^^ uh, away from the 1st to 5th.

someone remind me to do some gp when im back? cant wait to meet huaminquad on tues. i hope mitch rmbs! ^^

2010-11-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

181110

"til death do us apart". today as we parted ways, i dont think i will take it very easy. from now onwards, every dog i see will remind me of you. i guess you never know exactly how much we love you,baby. i dont know how to stop all these now, but i guess... i will cry to sleep later. T.T

though i have been saying that you'll go away soon, but i didnt know yesterday was the last time i touched you and fed you water. blogging is suppose to be therapeutic, but i dont think it's working.

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH. why must you go now?

yesterday as i witness the lamb-sacrifice by the muslims two steps away from the killing spot, those blood that gushed out like water sent an urge to tear. and then i thought about death and separation. and those thoughts inevitably led to you, whose eyes are already.... worn out.

i love you,more than life. but i hope death is a happier route for you than being here with us, with illness catching up. i think you're suffered more than what i am suffering now. :/

mintues of silence for you. r.i.p

2010-11-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

cant be bothered to delete those weird cbox messages. LOL. please bear with it. i will read your tags, if you left any. LOL.

I SAW YOURS, ZHIYUN! ^^ been looking at your fb too~ all those pictures. dont worry kay, i stalk you too! :D

random thoughts :

* my eyes are actually quite tired already. :/

* compare :) and :D.         zzzzz!

* sigh, better off fangirling.

* liarliarpantsonfire!       :@

it's easier to swallow such pride and log in those hours, than to wait,ponder and waste those moments on things that you already find impossible. instant gratification vs possibilities.
guess who won   :/

uhhhhhh! emo. sobs.

2010-11-04T22:01:00.000+08:00

once decided, i think it's better to do it perfectly straight from the start, than to do it half-heartedly, or even look bad in front of the others doing it. :/ somehow it's easy for anyone to say this. haha?

but i guess this could be one of the main reasons for me not to learn dance? i mean.it's quite embarrassing for me to talk about this topic because... i bet those reading, or not, have some knowledge and preferences regarding dancing. esp when i have a lot of friends and acquaintances who dances. dancers apart, those into kpop can be good critics for dancing too. :/ who wouldnt rate you and sub-consciously compare you with the "original" dancers that perform that song right.

this is a bit random, and im on the verge of deleting what i've typed here. this is purely my own opinion. so no offences, uh, ya. i dont think i will offend anyone, but who knows right? we are all sensitive creatures.

heehee, im proud of myself watching HOURS of jap dramas and variety shows the entire day today.

anyway conclusion : i feel that when you have decided to do something, perfect it. no point doing something sub-standardly and looking bad in front of others. i guess it's about 'mian zi' = face.
right? ^^ start working hard everyone.

2010-11-02T00:25:00.000+08:00

quick one before i log out. haven;t been updating, and.. it's not like it's important anyway. :/ ohwell, another session of therapy before normal lessons start(again).

23rd oct : kpop night. though it's still perceived as stupid to have spent such money by my mother, im still glad that i went for it. happiness comes with a cost and yesssss, the opportunity costs of going is.... underated.sigh, how many hours must i clock in to fill up the hole in my bank. ( having it to be empty in the first place anyway ) sighhhhhhh. one minute of silence for my plight please.
but yes! i will regret very BADLYYYYYYYY, if i didnt go, or if i bought seats of other ticket pricing. "/
kk, will repeat this sentence for another twenty times to make me feel better. ^^

uh, den i met up with mike and mr heng and his two japanese students, and his... friend-cum-student? somehow the outing made mike quite out of place, and surprisingly, i felt that way too. uh? that is weird because i was looking forward to it. on the other hand, i sort of pulled mike along. heh heh, but... somehow it's educational at the end of the day, right mike? lol! paiseh uh~

for the past weekend; i went to my cousin's place to stay over. cannot stand staying at home rotting the whole day. eventhough i have dramas and whatnot to get a day done and over with, there's side effects too.back aches and etc. lol. so... ya, i guess going to my aunt's place is not a bad choice anyway. need some extended family company once in a while too.hehhhh.

they're all going to face the most anticipated moments soon!
i hope all your efforts dont go down the drain, and ALL of you will perform up to your expectations.
( okay, maybe some, not all of you. heh heh, evil~ )
there's not much i can say, but i wish you guys all the best? aye, the cliche stuff will circulate around facebook and whatever soon anyway.mine dont matter much.ah well! do your best, no regrets!

ann ruohan ruzzie su! beat the rest out there! do yourself proud and we will all go watch ss3 happily with all the fanchants memorized; and for su, instead of ss3, your mnet thing is still very tempting for us! but too bad we'll be at our sch trip. :/ so ya! i hope at least fandom will motivate you further and provide you all with that extra drive to do well and not give up.

i need to find my drive and motivation in life, soon.i need to read self-improvement books just like.... lol.sweet potato. :/ ayeeeee, i want to cross paths with yours. but that's quite impossible because, you'll end up with someone famous just like your... :/ it will be too obvious if i say it out. lol?

sorry, im still in my world of fandom. ^^ bye.

2010-10-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

counting down. i think the finance issue is suppressing the amount of excitement that i should be having.

if i reincarnate in my next life, i would want to be a rich ... japanese. tsktsk.as expected?

:/ as always, i dont think that you know that i know a lot of things that you wouldnt expect me to know, you know. hahahaha. i was feeling proud of myself to have thought about this sentence. :/ not. lol.

oh well, all the best to you. you must be sick of this sentence by now anyway. and who's not?
lol. but as always, with my utmost sincerity.

^^ i shall retreat to my fortress of pillows and dreams that promises eternity after almost a day of dramas.
life is so much easier to just indulge in dramas, laugh at the right moments, sympathise at the right scenes, shed a bit of tears, and the day is over.
life is so much easier if my life is a replica of dramas.oh, plus point here, yamapi's drama.

sat,i will lose my voice for you and your comrades.

saw some scans. and damn, im gonna dl them tml, i swear.that just injected more excitement.
bye.

2010-10-18T22:38:00.001+08:00

and finally the day when everything can halt comes, the mood of celebrating is not here. seriously.

woah, there's a lot of things i wanna do after promos, now i cant recall anything. -.- why?

but one thing that kept me alive is this saturday. the thought of it. :D

i must exercise self-content ttm. shall just faster finish my drama! which can never happen cos there's too much to watch. ^^

i want to meet sp people. i want to meet kclassmates. i want to meet you,LTM. <3

sigh, but for now. i'll just meet fujimaru. xD

bye. if you dont know who am i talking about, it's okay.
heh, im just exercising some privacy, ( not ). fujimaru is the main lead in a drama that'll melt you. :D

and LTM, yea, people who know me will know, i guess? if not, you should work harder. :) joking.

bye. im more hyped up already. see, blogging is therapeutic.

2010-10-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

oh yea, just my own opinion. i feel that as people grow out of their shells, they change. of course, changes are inevitable.perhaps im just not as good with changes. but human relationships alter as well. perhaps character mutates as time eordes. perhaps it's just me again.

LOL. as mentioned in the previous post moments ago,
idontknowwhyimfeelingalllikethisnow.

random moments.

2010-10-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

is it me, or is it that people are trying hard to grow up faster?
:/ ya and of course, you'd agree to the former, making me the only one concurring to the latter.

haha, this is not about you, ziyuan. please dont misunderstand ^^

anyway, i will still continue to enjoy the things that most people will deem it as... boring-no life-loser. wdv.

idontknowwhyimfeelingallthiswaynow. :) bye.

2010-10-16T01:25:00.000+08:00

i guess one will do. one is enough to tear my heart apart. too depressing, and it's only the first episode. T.T

why must she have to die? she's suppose to be one of the main lead!

this is overwhelming. lol. bye.

2010-10-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

MIKE, you expect my heart to throb for you uh? heehee. it always did kay. LOL.

anyway, im sorry to feel this way, but i really dislike kara having the same interview with news! T.T
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. seriously ttm. sigh, can die. idk why, i just dont like. :( heehee, selfish kay, sorry.

the life of just watching dramas all day long will come soon.but for now, allow me to have it my way for another two episodes? sigh. phy and chem is too depressing.

2010-10-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

last bit before i go rest a bit and then go memorise some stuff..

woahhh, my heart throbs for you! uhh, not towards any particular guy this time round. fangirling mode should be kept under control in this period. somebody owes me a story, or maybe.. stories. lol. i wanted to like a particular photo on fb, but i guess not luh. so insensitive like chunkit. -.- tsk.

ha, i hope you know im talking about you! anyway, i dont really know why am i this excited. LOL.yayeeeeeeee. ya, of course, to have me here blogging about this seemingly trivial matter really proves a lot, cos... i havent been in this space for quite some time.

so. :D yaaaaaa. im damn happy for you! please tell me what happened when we meet in school, if you happen to come and study or consultations. ^^

woah. so.. :D

uh, if there's any job vacancies around, please message me? :/

2010-10-03T02:14:00.000+08:00

woah, i had a blast these days. fried chicken at su's place. planning for surprise and gift for su.camwhored at su's place as well, where we didnt know how to set the timer properly, so we ended up with continuous shots. heeheeeee. so nice la! ruohan made them into gifs! and i've koped them from her blog! HAPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

uh, i kinda want you guys to come for my funeral in future as well. cos i thought about the future ( about getting old and stuff ) after the block test period.uh, im not saying it ( the wake ) as any time soon, tsktsk, i've still got many things that i would like to do! lol. aye. how. how to appear at your wake when i want you all to send me off as well. o.o

LOL. anyway, i've enjoyed many many things recently, and i guess it's all thanks to you guys. ^^ uhhh, im happy for various things as well. heehee, they boys are back! and im going to order the album! ( waiting for the transfer ) the girls won many many awards! faster win, and... rest! it's time for my boys to win theirs too! they can easily beat the rest laaaaaaa! ( i hope korean fans will do us, and them proud! ) im quite excited to collect the album and some jap pamphlet after promos. currently im very broke, so... will most probably chiong to go earn those money back. :/

my heart aches everytime i listen to their voices. it makes me wanna cry cos... ohwell. :S
it's that kinda ache that brings the tinge of regret that shrinks your soul. it suffocates, and somehow tears just happen to swell up. it's kinda pathetic cos i thought i'll be over it soon. but, i guess their charm is too overwhelming. ffffffffffffffffffffff. seriously, i wanna go luh. tskkkkkkkkk!

all these aside, i need to prepare. i need to set the entire mood and mode right. i need to find the momentum. and i need to see the big picture of all these that i need to do in the coming days.

i will turn all those agony into power that hopefully last me for two more weeks or so.i will convert all the anticipation into the fighting spirit that the boys are showing to us. while they work hard, i guess i need to, too. LOL. this is a rather exaggerated post, and excuse me for it cos is 1.58 am.

i have yet to check the maths stuff and lms, and seriously. i need to just go and check it! i would really like an iphone if the boys got their own app. currently the girls have theirs already, and it's really pretty in pink yo. ohwell. let's just wait and go japan and check for rilakkuma cover.

hope you guys have the power to shine through the storm. ( too ) :)

here are the gifs. hee,ps ruohan. hope you dont mind! heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.loveyou(s).

2010-09-19T03:59:00.000+08:00

i wonder if sleeping four hours is enough. :/ Saturday was more than awesome, though i made it sound overrated here.will blog more.. (soon!) idk when.

miss ytss times. LOL. okay. there's not much to do about this until after exams. o.o yea.

2010-09-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

why are you always so nice? you spend more on others that yourself. okay, both amounts are equally large.lol. sighhhh. so niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2010-09-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

after so long,i've lost touch of what to blog about. currently listening to many new songs, and THEY ARE MORE THAN JUST DAEBAK. teehee, news is coming out with their new album too! must buy when the time is right! right now, my wallet's empty. sighhh, news concert pamphlet how? :/

school is starting, and as usual, there's a lot left to do. last minute work won't really help i guess. -.-

should start to count my blessings this time again, cos the whole week really felt like holidays for the first time. okay, not so exaggerated luh. all the fun will come back again after... one more month or so? :)
will be anticipating for it.

meanwhile, i think i will need to start my gears. ( a bit too late as compared to my classmates. -.- )
uhhhhh, thinking about them, im depressed already. would rather stay in the realms of kpop and whatnot.ohwelllllllll! ruohan and su are working hard, so must i! ( there's no link, but whatever. ) lol. sometimes you need to find reasons to work hard, isn't it?

the boys are taking a break from screens, and im kinda glad because they finally can rest and perhaps concentrate on their concerts. i will see them soon after promos! T.T will really start psychoing myself to hang in there.sighhhhh.

guanjie deactivated his fb! he wanna concentrate. lol. uhhh, i wont do it, but i guess i need to control too.

things to anticipate ; reasons to work hard ; motivation :
download performances at sixpages.meeting ruohan and su after their papers.kpop night.all the fun after promos.

all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.all the fun after promos.

cant really think much except the fun after promos that was promised.
i hope you're thinking about it too, and not only me that is looking forward to it. :/

toanyone!

2010-09-06T01:19:00.000+08:00

LOVE THIS SONG. idk where did i hear it again, but, i guess it was somewhere random? will post something here soon.

2010-08-28T01:40:00.001+08:00

" :( ---> :) ! "

HAPPY.

2010-08-26T00:59:00.000+08:00

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why aren't we born rich ? why don't we have rich boyfriends ? why am i even thinking about ways to scrimp and save for your concert ? why cant all these admiration and love be converted to monetary values ? :(
woah, how do i even get $300. $300 just to see you clearer? -.- lol. sighhhhhh. tsktsk. anyway, fan stuff aside.

i wanted to type about many stuff, but i think it all evaporated after facebooking. -.- wasted.

okay bye.

2010-08-21T01:36:00.000+08:00

somehow, this song have been ringing in my head since last saturday. all thanks to some people, and gary. ^^ and i find myself quite amazing, :/ lol. for having knowledge of certain english club songs, even though i don't listen much to english songs any more. must be my sister playing them at home.

this song reminds me of red colour, speed, wind, and you. lol.

soon : lucifer, japanese students, another session of difficult conversation.

good day, everyone.

p.s : i will post some advertisements BIG BIG here soon!

2010-08-18T00:40:00.001+08:00

for you.

somehow, i dont think you'll get to know certain things, because i dont see myself telling them to you in near future. nonetheless, im very happy tonight, no doubt. :) i need to start counting my blessings, because i dont know how long will all these last.if only im going for the ocs thing luh.im feeling a little empty after knowing that our worlds might differ from each other. i've got a lot on my hands currently, and im feeling lazy to do them. life. let's wait for 1am to come, den i'll start work.

positive! for thursday, im collecting OIM album. saturday, LUCIFER. :)

for you.

2010-08-11T00:31:00.001+08:00

the holiday mood is overwhelming, eventhough im having physics practical on thursday, and maths (T.T) module test on next tues. the four-day-longgggggg holiday served much as a period to relax than revision for me. damn, i've lost it to the muggers in my class already, haven't i. :/

like the change to my blogskin? ^^ everyone's a star!
until i find nice icons and nice templates, i'll change. :)

changes are taking over quite evidently and most of it shows positive light right now. i dont know if it's pure luck, coincidence or even fate, but the meeting today made my day. although i think we met for only 5 seconds? haha. how exciting. :D

sigh, but as usual, i dont think you feel that kind of excitement bursting out. lol. i mean, perhaps not as much to my extent. ohwell. band tomorrow.

p.s i hope the record we made would not be broken by your classmates. :/ call me selfish.

2010-08-07T02:24:00.001+08:00

HAD SERIOUS FUN ( AND LUCK ) THESE FEW DAYS!

(after all the preparing for blocktests during may/june and studying for never-ending tests in june/july, finally had fun to make up for the dipping of morale in school!) even though it might sound like some other trips-out-of-house with a couple of friends ( if i decided to list the things we did here) ,one thing for sure : i really enjoyed myself out with you all. all the slogging made me longed for such carefree moments i had these two days.but all these come with a price la. :/

anyway, good things worth mentioning :
i got TM's photocard! :D ( instant antidote. thanks grace! )
their albums will reach me soon! ( thanks denise! )

somehow we closed the gap and alleviate the awkward-ness between us, haven't we? haha. it's been long since i make such friends in yj. and as always, i look forward to our next outing together! ^^

if you decided to get an ipad, download this application and let me play okay? <3

2010-08-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

-.- so it is that i haven't done enough? how disappointing, seriously.

i hope many seniors will come back for the concert. miss perc section alotttttt. not forgetting weiling qianying jonathan and gang! and trombone seniors. T.T

thursday. :) * forcing positive thoughts.

okay, at least i can collect my lucifer albums soon. :/ TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM TM! i hope i get TM photocard!

thursday. :)

2010-08-01T00:15:00.000+08:00

LUCIFER'S FIRST WIN! <3

for non fans, they'd be calling me shallow. for fans, i'll have all the rights to fangirl and spazz for their first win! woohooooooooo!! :D i wanted to post this ytd, but im tired. and i'll be tired soon, predictions.so let me faster rant~

i think in order to keep moving forward in life, you need to be anticipative and motivated. and in order to do so, you need to exercise being self-contented. i think it's important to celebrate successes as well, be it small or elatedly-kind-of achievements to be proud of.

currently, im quite anticipative about their performances, and yamapi's. looking forward to korean class on Saturdays never fail to pull me through the week of physics tutorials and morning assembly (s).on certain days, i'll get to see some pretty people in school. and inevitably, i cant wait to receive the albums! both shinee's and yamapi's!

woohooo! im going to sleep soon.

your smiles are always very brilliant,they light the whole street as you walk and no doubt, you look very charismatic in what you wore today. three seconds of happiness.

2010-07-28T23:07:00.001+08:00

T.T WHY SO SUAYYYYY!

&$^%*&^$(*^%^$)$% :@

tsssssskkkkkkkk.seriously. T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T

sigh. bye.

2010-07-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

shall do a quick one before i go to sleep. sometimes i have the urge to... spazz and stuff. lol.

you're one of the few groups can really do live, with mr removed, with all the dance steps in sync. how i wish i can dance like you, tm. <3 but i guess i'll be more than happy to see you dance and smile and look cool. sighhhhh, you just made me confident for tomorrow's maths test. kekekeke. i think it's more than just boosting confidence, watching the performances repeatedly made me feel... that actually today's not a really bad day after all, and that the entire week will be... not so hard to get through with all the morning assembly and certain periods in the timetable.

blame the love i have, im not sharing the mr-removed-videos here. teeheee. they've got enough praises already. i shall keep them to myself. :/ :D

heart melting in process, <3 COMEBACK!

random :
this thought have been in my head for quite some time already ; how i wish i can take your pain away. :/

tml : huamin gathering yo.

hope to see you tml in school!

2010-07-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

do you know when you sing, you touched my soul? do you know when you rap,my heart throbs twice as fast? do you know your eye expressions can make me smile to myself? do you know your intense emotions is overwhelming? do you know when you dance, you steal the limelight, and with my heart along as well?
<3 샤이니 LUCIFER 2 집 대박!

태민아, 생일축하해~
행복에추세요!

til i master korean fully, i will keep sentences short and sweet.

"our love should go on.all about you.love you. i wanna be with you, only you." i like how they integrate old with new songs.

you made me more alive. ^^

2010-07-16T22:37:00.001+08:00

MAKE WAY, COS THEY'RE COMING BACK.
i have a lot of reasons for celebration! * i hope both photocards are tm's. :D

2010-07-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

impulsive spending. i hope it's all worth it. :/

this will lead to an increase in assets.i must see it as a good investment. it's a long term kinda thing, and we often dont see it that way. instead of looking at the big picture, what bothers us most is inevitably our current status. this is almost like economics. despite saying all this, the hole in my pocket is causing me to feel a tinge of grief.

im still running away from the comprehension due tomorrow.

tomorrow : no band! sports meet! friday! 3.5 hours break!

i must see it as a long term investment, i must see it as a long term investment,i must see it as a long term investment,i must see it as a long term investment,i must see it as a long term investment,i must see it as a long term investment,i must see it as a long term investment,i must see it as a long term investment,i must see it as a long term investment,i must see it as a long term investment!

cant wait. :D

2010-07-15T02:25:00.001+08:00

though it might be considered insignificant and somewhat minor, i am contented enough this time.no Us or Ss, but no As or Bs as well.so this is considered average, or perhaps, near average, below average.but this will spur me to do better. YAYYYEEEEEEEE.

even though there's no As or Bs, and im considered only the average in class, THERE'S STILL THE ELATION OF PASSING ALL SUBJECTS (minus gp, which we haven't got back)! furthermore, for chem and phy, i fall under 70plus percentile. mr heng! hope you get to read this. somehow or rather, i feel like sharing this with you, but, nah. you should go mark your student's proposals. :D

i feel like asking people out to celebrate! but i dont think those people will come across this. :/ nonetheless,teehee, i hope you passed everything too! * allthebestforyourecons!

this made me feel less guilty for... getting excited for their comeback = buying album, and thinking of splurging on rilakkuma.lol. thanks ann. HAHAHAHA.
:) it's thursday, then friday! :D :D :D i wanna ask people out to celebrateeeeeeeee. ^^

2010-07-11T02:09:00.000+08:00

it's been long since i felt this way. -.- that's what you get for being gekiang,wanting to juggle two events.it's like walking on a thin rope, and i would not like to risk it again. next week's saturday night will all be reserved for kclassmates, and we will take pictures again! sigh, another week of anticipation.

the day was started out pleasantly before noon, with ben and jerry's. let's go there again, and we can bitch about whoever we want with ruohan yo.im knowing things without someone feeding me with information. media, how powerful. and knowing it is somewhat irritating. however, i should be nonchalent about it. :) okay. im apathetic towards certain things already. being apathetic is healing too, in a way.

i cant wait for monday's lessons to end!

2010-07-10T00:54:00.000+08:00

is it possible to die of happiness overwheming? *gasp. :D

2010-07-04T00:42:00.000+08:00

this might sound a bit shallow, but i think i really like my kclassmates, more than the classmates in school in fact.

the past ten lessons made me anticipate every saturday. yesterday was not an exception, albeit feeling a tinge of disappointment.some people didn't join the intermediate level, which was quite depressing as they said that they'll join previously. but perhaps due to certain life-changing decisions and events, somehow the timing for kclass clashes with their part-time degree lessons on saturdays. i spoke to the few of them only once or twice, some, i didnt even said hello before, but i really like them. how much, i think i'd like to spend my saturdays with them til i grow old, then we'll all go korea together with the teacher, perhaps our kids can learn korean from my teacher's children, and you know, we'll become very good friends. i miss the people who didnt turn up today, especially andy and dominic. you know for me, the past few weeks without korean classes, the past few weeks of going to the bombshelterstudyingroom, the epic failure of enjoyment on friday made me anticipate yesterday's kclass A LOT. it's all because i missed them too badly.

seeing them and hearing their laughter became a routine on saturdays already.having andy and dominic sitting at the back is somewhat fun because i like to hear their conversations. im very sad now, not because andy looks a bit like ryowook, but, somehow or rather, without them in class makes kclass empty.

:(

coming back to the kallang trip on monday, maybe i will just give up waiting for people to volunteer themselves to accompany me there. so much for having friends. -.-

...

2010-07-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

i think the vexation from using the laptop is starting to kick in, and im starting to feel very hopeless and pathetic. -.-

today's suppose to be a day to enjoy and celebrate the last paper of block tests. almost one month of mia-ing from jonathan and clique, and one month of doing things related to school, i should be enjoying myself and feeling rewarded today. but sigh, i didnt. no offence, but the things we did wasnt that satisfactory. watched movie, not something im anticipating for. ate at amk,and wasted A LOT of time deciding where to go next. i dont want to go on already. while doing all these, i thought about many possibilities. about who will i hang out with, where will i go instead, what kind of exciting stuff that will take place and etc.

listing one by one out, actually there isn't many that i can turn to.louis has geog paper in the afternoon, jonathan and friends found their new lives without us and probably studying til late, ruohan who should be in school til late as well, ruzzie ann chunkit or whoever will be studying, probably not having spare time for anything except for their intensive revisions. thinking about it, this will be the reality for the next two years, isnt it? then, who's left? who's left is only the guy on my phone's wallpaper, screensaver, laptop's wallpaper as well, and etc. if i continue to list, it'll make me sound even more... loser, isnt it. thinking about it, what did i do after last year's block test? i actually have no idea. band's always around the corner, and i think i wasted my life ( incessantly ). feliciatan talked about parallel dimensions, and it makes me wonder if the other me in another world is suffering (like today).

somehow, i miss having mike in school, or just hanging around us. he accompanied me to collect my dvd, which might be a very difficult task for the others to do without complaining and thinking how worthless are they, or complaing how far is it, because that time we went all the way to redhill/queenstown from yishun.

now, actually who'd spend their time travelling to kallang, somewhere lacking of constructive urbanisation, somewhere so unconvenient to do something that is not related to their own welfare? -.- only the guy in my phone will follow me everywhere. :( no, i should be optimistic, because, at least it's yamashita after all.

the laptop's spoilt screen made it miserable to watch videos, and it is killing me every second.

how pathetic you are.
the more i read what i've typed, the extent of feeling pathetic is almost suffocating.
im out.

2010-06-30T22:46:00.000+08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T

-.- tsk! why cant you last a bit more longer? :/ it's july already and im waiting for many things to take place, without you, i cant do anything i anticipated. :( that is for my laptop.

now i need to go kallang urgently to get it fixed. T.T
and i need to back up all my assets in case they restart everything. they better replace me with a new one la.now, where do i even start? back up files, or study chem, or concurrently? T.T
shit, how to study maths with all the answers being in soft copy? T.T

ANYONE WANNA GO KALLANG? -.- i doubt not. T.T

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2010-06-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

thanks ann! so niceeeee! T.T
im in a good mood, but im sick. :/ what a timing. i hope those powers you've bestowed will clear the fever away! meanwhile, i should really go back to econs. it's nice receiving your replies! i hope you dont read this though. all these fangirling mode will probably scare you away.

bye! all the best people.

2010-06-23T02:10:00.003+08:00

見て見て！イケメンよね。彼の笑顔を見てから、いまの私はメッチャ嬉しい～

やっぱりね、日本語は大好き。これは何時までも変わらないですよ。

山ぴ様のために頑張ります。諦めての時じゃないからね。学校の仕事は大変と難しい。でも、日本に行きたいです。だから、それにもうちょっと耐えるよ。

今でも、日本語ことができます。ちょっの幸せに感じられる。
これ気持ちは守りたい。

あなたの体ことが心配して。もっと注意を払うね。

teehee,end of spazzing session.

despite refreshing the fb home page several times already, it still suggests me to * write on your wall, *reconnect with you, * say hello, or * send a message.LOL. inevitably, this made my day. XD
i hope you stay on my home page tml too (!), and maybe many days to come.

IMPOSSIBLE? I'M POSSIBLE.
from the nice (and new) TOSHIBA DYNABOOK ad. :D 山ぴ様。＾０＾

2010-06-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

RW! 생일축하합니다!

Countdowns :

2/7 fri : LAST PAPER. ^^
8/7 thur : NEW SONG RELEASE!    :D
9/7 fri : COMEBACK! YAYYYYYEEEEEEEE. anticipating for those moments!

12/7 mon : ALBUM RELEASE! :/ no title yet. but yes, will save money for you.   :)
28/7 wed : ONE OF A MILLION SINGLE RELEASE!   exciteddddddddd!   :D adding another to my collection!
29/7 thur : SCREENING OF LIAR GAME! must watch on first day! :D

JULY! IT'S COMING. HAPPY DAYS! excluding tests and whatnot, YAYE.threadless tee arriving too. :D

okay, expected expenditure is only two albums for next month. :/ sj's 4thjib how?

it's been good to study at the cc, minus all the suffocatings induced by the unventilated air.
shall go watch one or two ep, and back to what i was doing.    :)

2010-06-15T03:13:00.000+08:00

your unfortunate pains me, inside out.

:) polaroids with korean classmates next week, yo. finished sinning with three episodes long.will make it up tml. didnt regret spending time on my computer.

im counting down to your performances.dont give up. ^^ cant wait to see your pretty faces, hear your voices that tug heartstrings, feel awe with your magical powers.

where's all the counting down codes?

2010-06-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

i just liked ann's tumblr post with my sis' account unknowingly. :/ so yea ann, that's me (in my sis' acc).

i need to start counting down to special occasions, like putting some special countdown counter here to spur all the excitement.i want to put an online calendar as well. LOL? to you know, excite myself every time i come online.i need to switch that fangirl mode on soon! :s

school can be anticipating if you meet the right people at the right time, like today. ^^
though it lasted merely 3 seconds, i felt happy for the entire day. tsktskkkk. fangirl mode again.

thinking about it, this year has it's ups and downs ( not like it's past 12 months ), but you know, until today.
i will blog about this tml okay? :)

2010-06-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

:(

this is for going to school tml, as well as band, during holidays! i am yet to be done with assignments due tml, and... i should really start doing them. :/ i lost my ezlink card as well. >.> but it has to be at home somewhere.just couldnt find it after clearing up my table ( half done ). better luck tml or someday, because adult fare costs a bomb. the sad face is also for the act of saving money.i am always saying that i am saving and all, but.. this time, i am really going on a saving spree. :/ didnt manage to go airport ytd, didnt get to catch a glimpse of them. but yes again, better luck next time. i really dont feel like going to lessons tml. all the file checking, what's there to check again and again? -.-

:)

this, is for..having half-done clearing up for my table.it is almost derrick's birthday, so people! please go fb and wish him hb, or msg him okay. when i am rich enough, we should go buy swensen's ice cream cake and eat for fun! the happy face is for sj again. because seeing them online makes me feel energetic, and i think i'd have enough energy to complete what i wanna do later! :/ assignments. zzzzzz, but i will try my best later with music on. the happy face is also for the time i spent with ruzzie ann reshma chunkit and with abit of nisa on last friday.no offence, but i think the concert is not as what i've imagined, and the passing out ceremony is totally none of our business, so i think it really wasted my time and money. but i like the post-event after it : dinner. i like to hang out with yt clique again, but it would be really fun with ruohan around. so... before you guys study like mad, please find one day and we shall hang out. eat some nice food and maybe go ruzzie's house. lol. she have kbs and band hero yo.or maybe we can come out to study too. ohhhhhh, before i forget, this smiley is for the upcoming events when the huamin quadruplets hang out to study or overnight. :) please dont forget about our mini bbq.

:/ wanna go see you guys in august. i hope it doesnt clash with prelims with you guys.why cant it be sept? okay. this is another portion for the sadface column.

:/ okay, i shall stop here, get soemthing to drink and start doing all the last minute work.

2010-05-30T23:16:00.001+08:00

you write one of the most touching lines. ^^

i hope this will cheer you up.

i dont want to put the other picture that i really like here. too much fangirling tonight will hinder me from sleeping. :/ but, EH and RW! :D

if only i can start knowing you all over again.

2010-05-27T01:02:00.001+08:00

too bad that i dont have a tumblr, but yea ann, your inspiring quote has inspired more than five now. ^^
inclusive of my eyecandy. heehee. it was definitely fate. ^^ coincidence is part of fate as well.

2010-05-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

i think i can forget about sleeping early today, it's not like i have any choice left. look at the time now. :/

anyway, today( or rather, tuesday )'s a day where we all celebrates your 2nd year anniversary.im really proud to be your fan, and for many years to come, i will continue to love you with my throbbing heart.i'd like to share my love with your seniors as well,suju. but i guess the magnitude of adore wont exceed how much im worshipping you boys. ^^ ought to really celebrate today, but, i think i will need to wait for thursday to come. shall celebrate it with ruohan and su. nonetheless, im feeling the surge of guilt for not being updated with your news.haven't been visiting your webs since... feb? and, i will be updated of all the events that you took part in during the june holidays. please wait for me, love(s).

apart from the fangirling, tuesday's a day to be happy about! it feels really good to be talking to you at such a distance and to witness your every expression.i felt like i've known you for a very long time, and i cannot stop all the praising( quietly ). ^^ i really like the morning bus ride as well.i like you in your white uniform.i like you standing nonchalantly at the bus stop as well.

so, yes! isn't tuesday a day to celebrate?

2010-05-22T16:44:00.000+08:00

SUJU WON K-CHART ON MUSICBANK! ^^ will update more when im back again.

2010-05-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

:/ it's weird blogging on weekdays, but i'd really like to say suju's 4th album is really amazing.it's more than amazing.is it a little late to really really love them as a whole? :/ i'd like to buy their album, this time.
cant take my eyes off you, EH.and im starting to like KH and RW. ^^

i like to read ann's tumblr and get inspired. haha. i like tumblr.
i like to read ruzzie's fb constant updates on statuses too. doesnt it makes you feel real?
ohhhh, i like to read ann's tumblr with all the...uh,inside stories behind words or whatever you call them.it's like playing mind games, and i often know who is it for, okay, almost all. ^^
i'd like to study with the same people again. :) but it would be better if some people went too? heehee

this week, i've felt so much hotness from suju and all the pretty faces in school.so much that im feeling anticipative to go to school.can melt. please let those encounters happen more frequently.i hope those moments will happen to ann and reshma too.
i hope to know you better.open your heart, let us in.

back to work, with suju singing in the back. ^^

2010-05-09T15:58:00.000+08:00

im injected with this surge of energy to do stuff!

because shinee's new ost is very nicely sung and arranged with minho's and key's ever-impressive rap, jonghyun's and onew's powerful vocals, and not forgetting taemin's cute way of singing. i love spazzing.i miss spazzing.i miss spending time with my computer.i miss watching all the videos and get updated with the kpop and jpop world.i miss watching all the jap dramas. :/

mondays' gp lecture.   ^^
tuedays' mass pe and econs class.   ^^
thurdays' and fridays' breaks.
saturdays' korean class.
weekends' study sessions? ( pending )
small talks and catch up session with bandpeeps.
occasional meet ups with ruohan.

these are the days and events i look forward to. ^^

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY. say thankyou to your mother today! if you haven't been saying that to her.

2010-05-08T01:58:00.001+08:00

No. 430. all the laughing and gossiping moments in band are loved. i love us, band peeps.

goodbye,all the fun and entertaining band people i loved.goodbye,all the juicy gossips that made us laugh til we dropped. ^^ study hard people.i am counting down the days to a levels for you guys and for no good reasons too. despite all the tough happenings, i think i love band. going to band practices have always been a quite well-anticipated (habit?) because of you guys. :D

2010-04-18T03:07:00.000+08:00

YAYEEEEEEE! THERE'S SOME THINGS THAT MADE ME HAPPY TODAY! ^^ and some recently.

let me express the happy-fangirl-side of me please. i've been controlling that side of me since i blogged the last time.

NEWS RECIEVED PLATINIUM AWARD FOR SELLING 250K COPIES OF THEIR NEW SINGLE IN ONLY TWO WEEKS! AND IM GETTING MY OWN COPY ON MONDAY! WOOHOOOOOOOO. SO PROUD OF THEM :D

ARASHI GOT DOUBLE PLATINIUM! LOVE THAT MV AND THE SONGS IN THAT SINGLE.

I BOUGHT OFFICIAL SHINEE STUFFS! thankyou yuting btw. ^^

cant wait for Monday man! if only school ended early on Thursday.that could have spared me the wait. :/ but yaye! im glad i bought the single. ^^ kudos to my sis who'll be collecting it for me. heehee.

i can feel the days of scrimping and saving coming.will take that as a form of dieting anyway.
ohhhhhhhh. and yayeeeeee, nafa's over! passed everything. so many things to be happy about.. ( at this moment) only when the brain choose to omit certain stuff.

i feel that blogging is a controlled activity now, so, i must blog more tonight!

chunkit and sophie, my band friends, gave me this enormous poster. of course, any fan girl will be more than estatic la! but i dont like charing the picture with so many people in school. -.- but, YAYE! was really happy that day when i carried that big thing around.will load that picture up.

around 2.52am this picture was successfully uploaded.

that a4 pad is there to give you a comparison of how big it is. ^^

talking to ziyuan on msn is always the best. the joy of sharing stories.facebooked, disturbed ruohan while she's doing work via facebook, gossiped with chunkit on facebook as well.

okay, bye. ^^

2010-04-10T23:38:00.000+08:00

im back, but with a fever as well. haven felt like this since ages. :/ 39.26 degrees.

but you see, i can die happy (instantly). if i were to visit this shop.

http://rilakkumastore.com/

ohwell, cannot think of anything to type already. brain's malfunctioning. :o tired.

ohhhh. but HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO TOMOHISA KUN.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JONGHYUN SSHI.

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY TO JONATHAN AND GUANJIE.

:)

2010-03-21T05:28:00.000+08:00

okay, i'll dedicate the energy i've left to upload some stuff onto this space. :)

i bought a name card album for polaroids. feeling very contented now, because my polaroids finally have a proper place to sleep in, rather than the rilakkuma biscuit box.i will go decorate the album, and, put it up here. hehe, who knows. i can make money by selling decorated albums. okay, that is provided if i got time. sian, tml need to chiong hw. GRRRRRR. all those irrelevant work need to be done. monday got band, zzz? maths test. mmmm, okay. somebody nice just made me wanna download all the jap dramas.

but you know i wont, cos, because of all the workload, i stopped fangirling online, and get updated with all the videos. T.T can die. nvm, after maths test and this week, i'll get updated. :o estimated how long will i need man. zzzzzzzzzzz. and it was said that i wasnt trying hard enough. sorry, that line still cant get off my mind.

thank goodness, cos i finally uploaded a NICEEEEEEEE and INSPIRING wallpaper into my phone.
fighting~

2010-03-18T02:41:00.000+08:00

after telling myself to sleep after listening to that song one last time, i repeated the song many timesssssss subconsciously. :) goodnight,goodmorning.

2010-03-18T02:16:00.000+08:00

它帶妳來騙我說渴望的有可能有希望
just that night,i found myself falling in love with chinese music again.okay, maybe not chinese music. music by yogalin will do.

the best happenings in my life recently : sailing camp, shinee, yogalin, news calendar, rilakkuma files, shinee again, 1.5 hrs of wed's post band prac, discovery of new single releasing, phone call with ruohan, shinee again.

why was that 1.5hrs of wed's post band prac one of the happenings listed anyway.

really satisfied with news' calendar. ^^ it made every torture and suffering worthwhile. o.o
it's like, what i've been through recently happened for a reason; and that is to make me feel more alive the moment see the calendar? :/ i hope this positive thinking will sink in my mind.

the next anticipated happenings : release of new single and mv( 23rd mar). meeting ruohan ( next sat ). band prac with j2 ( okay. perhaps this can be classified under half-anticipated)( next fri). start of korean class with yuting and ziyi( is it next sat as well?). the moment when i have time to spazz and fangirl and whatnot ( who knows when.)

i want to meet jessicatoh. :)
i am meeting weizhuang clarence zaki and some others soon.
i need to go to woodlands lib for some research thing in another few hours time.
i think i am spending my entire day on maths and whatnot in the library.
i feel like buying a book on the original version of the grimm' fairytales from amazon.com.
i am putting the video on repeat since monday.
i should really start using twitter.
i really like econs. and the teacher.
i miss having mike in class, with jiani and yt people.
i look forward to meet ruohan.
i spent quite some time to figure out the mv and lyrics.
heartache.

and it was said that i wasnt trying hard enough.now you make me wonder why did i even try.

after all, we are all fighting alone, isnt it?
dont beg to differ.

2010-03-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

spring was here, then gone.
i remembered the floor littered with pink blossoms and the whole street of trees were in full bloom.i wanted to take the scene of it in polaroid, but when i walked home just now, no more flowers. what's left was only the cleanly swept pavement.

things come and go, don't they?

i hope this lasts.danial's turn is coming! and im going to do many things in my breaks tml.

i ought to be going. need to take my dinner, to bathe, to rest before doing some maths, to prepare and pack my bag. but there's certain things i feel like ranting.

tomorrow, there's another war to fight. i feel sorry for myself.only a tinnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bit. for putting so much effort, and just like that, claimed so easily by the others. to attend an event that tortures every bit of my soul is like fighting a war. i fight it three times a week by the way.

i wanna watch : summer wars, alice in wonderland, nodame cantabile. any movie dates? ^^

the moon is never bigger than your thumb wherever you are.

2010-02-20T03:38:00.000+08:00

it's been almost one good month since i blogged, and i want to dedicate almost the entire post to some very important ppl. :)

mitch,suhaidah and ruohan appeared at my doorstep one plus plus hours ago. lol. and i thought they wouldnt be doing something like last year anymore.^^ i am very happy now! no, i am more than estatic!

im entitled to two tickets to korea and japan respectively, where there are no return dates! i mean, they wrote " return date : forever ". THEY GAVE ME TEN BILLION DOLLARS! REAL CURRENCY.zimbabwe dollars.lol.i want to laminate those things mannnnnn! they decorated the neighbourhood playground with "happybirthday" stuff ,which we're suppose to reuse for the next surprise party. lol.we had a cup noodle-coke light-fried mantou-silver mat to sit on- party. it was a blast! uhhhh, we're too busy talking and laughing.didnt take any pictures. but will save that chance for next time! when we're all looking pretty, and not with bad hair or with sch tees.and i love the pair of shoes they painted! must go find some transparent case to "frame" it up. one has a sun and a mountain on it.

(sun) = (tae)min. (mountain) = (yama)pi.

OMGGGGGGGGGG. REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS! you guys made me feel really loved today! THIS IS THE MOST EPIC CELEBRATION EVER! will organise more epic stuff when your impt days are here! mitch, uhhhh, the next party for you is like, next year? heehee. will organise something before you shave all your hair.

HUAMIN QUINTET;너무 너무 사랑합니다. until i learn more vocab and expressions to express all the exploding emotions i have for you guys, bear with this sentence!

i have a very big heart, because they are still a lot of people i love!

ziyuan's email made me feel as equally loved and estatic as well. lol
i feel like crying after reading it , because it made me remember all the people i missed and loved. even those people in yjc, i kinda miss them too, ( even though we met in some point of time or the other ) aye, it's just different.

in school, in class, im really trying hard. in band as well.you wont know how hard it is. im trying to make friends, make really good friends.but there's no any other that can replace all those special ones like some of you. i hate growing up.i really do.cos with time, we'll grow painfully distant.that's inevitable isnt it? :(

i met up with jarratt,yanzhen and aidil as well. that pizza session was fantastic! with the help of jarratt's boss's angbao of fifty bucks. everything was enjoyed wonderfully. you guys made me feel loved as well! i love the pickup lines, the gossips, the stories, and the laughter we shared across the room. when can we do this again?

i miss chai xinyi eugene and that entire bunch. eventhough we dont really talk and share stories much ( for the guys), i still want to meet you guys. :/ chai's bday will be the time man.

P.S : you guys made me miss each one of you even more when we cant meet or catch up properly.i miss us.
i will update again. it's 0340 in the morning, and im meeting ziyuan later~

i love you alllllllll, i really do.

2010-01-24T19:21:00.001+08:00

flag flown at half staff.
i'll observe MANNNNNNNNNNYYYYYYYYYY minutes of silence.please be strong.

2010-01-24T02:43:00.000+08:00

what did you accomplished in the past seven days?
i hope it's something big and satisfiying.

my dreams really came true.theboysarehavingtheirownevent.i should be getting really excited for them and for myself,but after hearing about their broadcasted advertisement,im starting to hate it.shouldnt they promote the concert instead? stupid.tssssskkkk.another reason why i dont really like the idea of advertisement is because,it'll attract alot of fans. T.T lol.jealousy's the culprit.

uhhh.and i should start filing my stuff,clean my room and get a life. ^^

the life that i anticipated most will officially start around 29th and most probably draw a halt on the 3rd next month.such short-lived happiness.then, for the rest of the year = no life.unless some miracles happen in between those period.
then either this dec or next march,i'll have the blast of my life. (hopefully)

nobody im close with is online already.it didnt occur to me that i could have accessed itunes to play some hip music until now.o.o what's wrong,brain?

life has been meaningless and boring.without money,i guess you can only have that limited amount of reasons to be happy about.how shallow.so, i will try my best to have happy dreams.

if happy dreams appear tonight,shall i not wake up until when i feel like it? :/

"if i were a singer singing about you, i think there'll only be sad melodies."

i think i make a good lyricist.

continue to work hard for your manyteststocome.take care of yourselves at the same time.i know it's quite impossible to have time to rest and stuff, but ohwell, that's your life isnt it? keke.maybe you guys wont even read.i hope your friends around will lend you strength. if not, i'll ask the fairies to do some magic.
화이팅.

nights.i live in dreams. lol.

2010-01-17T03:41:00.000+08:00

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally wanna goooo!

im having this urge to do everything which i put them on hold previously.like.. training myself to have better dancing genes.( haaa~ ) jogging with my sis. design. go chinatown to buy materials. source out lyrics and some vocab. be more proactive in learning the things i like. convince them to let me tag along.(but how?! T.T ) pack my room. file all the important stuff. watch sgb. etc.

after thinking about the list,im feeling lazy now to complete the mission.on the other hand, i want to feel busy again. o.o i live in a different world from you guys,isnt it? yaaaa,im a shawol.^^ (understand? i hope you dont though.)

*yawns.

work hard! for those who'd be reading this : fight for the things you believe in,the things you desire so badly,the things that will make you happy and satisfied.2010 will not be going easy on you,so i hope you will have the strength and courage to pull through.i hope you'd have smart and healthy friends that will guide you in the dark. sounds cliche,and i really dont understand why am i including this here.ermmmm, yes, we live in different worlds.one more thing,i hope im far enough where whatever happens in your world, dont affect me at all. this is referring to no one in particular, but to things in general.getting tired of making decisions.that title dont affect me anyway. ( ihopeithink)

dont waste time.
if you get to read this, people-who-are-suppose-to-be-studying,you should really get back.

let me dream of you guys again and let me feel alive and hopeful.

2010-01-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

what are we living for?

2010-01-12T01:34:00.000+08:00

im betting if i'll be lucky to meet the boys in person,and lucky enough to take pictures with them.
the stake? fujifilm intax mini. :/ 미쳐소.

2010-01-10T18:28:00.000+08:00

how's this? ^^
im so proud of myself.

2010-01-07T01:55:00.003+08:00

must start to hide my shiny boys! tsk.hate shallow fangirls.
time to change template. O.O

2010-01-06T23:33:00.003+08:00

please make dreams come true.

i am blogging only now, because im waiting for youtube to load my videos.didn't want to blog because...i still find the band picture very nicely taken.dont want to block our beautiful picture.anyway.we saw this passionrunatthezoo poster in school today, and out of nowhere, we're going! marathon. o.o exercising after nafa so many moons later. nooooo. that signals frequent jogging sessions. i can't wait to be fluent and be able to complain and gossip with ruzzie.im still loading the video..

okay.be right back.

kay,there's another part that requires loading. O.O damn it. youtube's so slow when you wanna watch something important.anyway,did i memtion about me dreaming about shinee coming to singapore,and was holding some conference-like event, and i was talking to.. taemin? okay.i hope this will come true.cos the part where they're coming came true.there was once as well, i dreamt that news came to yjc to promote their diamond dvd.idk why yjc, i rmb me talking to yamapi and asking for his picture as well.so yea, part of the dream came true : release of dvd. ^^
didn't wish for anything last christmas,nor new year, so.. i hope all the luck i have retained in my soul is sufficient for me to meet and speak to shinee.

ziyuan dreamt of me holding a large autographed picture,so.. yes. please make that happen as well.keke. taemin's please?

my posts are always related to some kpop jpop stuff that not many are into, and for that, im sorry.days recently are boring me out.band members... not all came.which is not surprising. but as usual, who would not be disappointed.dont understand why people cant be like ann and the rest. not band enthusiatics, but at least we turn up as much as possible. stupid. :/

see, these things... i dont think they're even fit to be in my posts. tsk. need to save.omg.

okay.just to warn those who're getting me stuff anytime in feb.dont buy me useless things okay.like stuffed toys, unless they're authentic rilakuma merchandises.okay,maybe not even that.don't waste money la. give them to me yea. heh heh.joking. just dont waste money on useless things. you're free to buy any shinee stuff though. uhhhh, dont buy those fake stuff.i've got shinee romeo,y.o.u album already.uhhhh,calendar as well. so ya. cash seems to be the most convenient gift.i accept jap yen and korean won. :D shameless advertising.

and that phrase somewhat reminded me of this goodlooking guy/ but i cant remember his face. o.o must be not goodlooking enough then.

away again.

uhhhhh.back here. is there any more stories to tell? everyone's doing new year resolutions.gahhhh.dont feel like doing it.sigh.

someday, im going to make it big. i want to write songs for shinee.it'll be daebak. i need to figure the things i want to write in shinee's cards, which i havent even started. T.T that's kinda bad.tsk, so many things undone.

i fianlly understand why ruzzie wanna go to a ski resort so badly! all because of jokwon and gain! can i love two more people? ^^ sigh. cant figure three simple characters on the keyboard! (odokkae).

one more part to load! and jokwon's so funny and romantic at the same time. gain's so cute. she's another narsha.

that's all. there's still band rehearsal tml.

2009-12-27T02:14:00.004+08:00

if only ann,reshma,nisa and ruohan was there. really like this picture.

need:

plans.goals.fighting spirit.sleep.dreams of taemin.

it's 2.53am. why am i not sleeping yet?

we are like people sprinting together,but in opposite directions.

왜이래?

2009-12-24T02:30:00.002+08:00

how can anyone not love leehyukjae? ^^

i've got an urge to start liking taylor swift's songs again. :/ i need to find my jpop soul back. but i want to retain my kpop soul as well. how to spread love equally to both worlds? how spread love to both taemin and yamapi at the same time? lol.tsktskkkkkk.

bye.

2009-12-22T22:51:00.002+08:00

i've been wanting to write something pretty badly these dew days. ziyuan dreamt of me visiting his house with a very big picture of some guy, AUTOGRAPHED! apparantly i stole it. ^^ clever me.i hope it's TAEMIN'S. tsktskkk..i dreamt of me chewing my tooth which fell out from my gums. pretty weird, but at least it was something that stimulated my sleeping brain and wandering soul.

and i just found out what i want to do in future recently.here it goes.

the dream of being a veterinarian starts to fade with time. the thought of saving animals and getting close with them is getting more vague as childhood slowly crawls away.it's quite weird for me to start thinking this way, because i had this vision of being someone related to animals ever since primary school.hmmm.

maybe i want to be shinee's/S.M.E translator. ^^ since they're targetting the japanese market, chinese market and who knows... maybe the english market or smth. i want to write songs that will rock the entire music industry; just like ringdingdong/sorrysorry/gee; you know what i mean. or i want to be someone who will start korean/japanese resturants attracting kpop/jpop fans in singapore. i will develop some street in orchard to be this... korea/japan village, where all the koreans and japanese can dine,shop,relax and chill there.then, when shinee/or some bands i like come to singapore, they can visit, i can get close and PERSONAL with them, and maybe arrange private transportation for them. maybe i can apply to be their region manager as well.i will start to bring in korean/japanese clothing brands into singapore, so that ruohan/su/ruzzie/ann and me won't fret about spending so much on shipping fees and some other stupid extra fees that we need to pay.

meanwhile, i need capital to even study these languages.need those fighting spirit in order to make things work. above all, i need to make concrete plans.maybe from something small and insignificant, but crucial to the path towards all the big dreams. i need some sleep, and i need to pack my room, and settle some urgent matters that require quite a bit of my creativity juice. T.T tired.i should really start thinking how to earn big bucks in future.

let's hit the gym, go on a saving-spree and a diet.

hwaiting.

2009-12-10T01:17:00.004+08:00

went to send off those going-japan-peeps. TSSSSSSSSSSKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! damn it la, didnt make it back in time to blog this on 8thdec. didnt want to do it ytd night cos i wanna do a proper post for this special occasion.

T.T mianhe minho.

생일축하합니다 !

tired now. on onew's birthday, i'll do a proper one.
^^ and i saw alvin in school. tsktsk, pleasantly surprised.

k,byeee.

2009-12-07T23:05:00.002+08:00

ruohan will kill me after reading this. ^^

today's a very nice day. know why? cos i met alvin~ (^0^)Y
we took the same bus,same train, and i stood near him almost all the time.tsktsk. meeting him in the morning in his pe attire and sports shoes, is like meeting minho in his cool coat. that flaming charisma that he possess (even when he's doing nothing). kay. that's for minho.LOL!

-.- i didn't stand near him on purpose.tsk tsk, does that make things worse? i sound like a stalker.hehhhh.alvin's really tall like minho. AHEM. minho here is not LEEMINHO btw. :/
so anyway,i've never met the flaming-charisma-minho before,thus i cannot really say that alvin is as tall as minho. ( that's what ruohan said ) but after watching so many episodes of dreamteamseasontwo, lol? i can tell how tall is minho. tsk tskkkkkk. and i really like eunhyuk since the beginning when i started spazzing over sj.haissssss. so cute. LOLLLLL.

that's how i spent my entire day : spazzing over almost realistic gominam(s), and our realistic alvin in his raffles pe attire.

i should really add him on facebook and tell him that we're living in the same block.

*just joking. :D now im a major stalker.
i hope i get to see handsome ppl tml too.OHHHHHHHH. and i spoke quite a lot of japanese to japanese today. feel so proud of myself.tsk tskkkk.okayyyyy. next time i will speak korean too.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEE.

2009-11-21T20:24:00.002+08:00

my blog's getting boring and i am out of things to write.ruohan should really update her blog.mike said your blog is interesting to read, and your lines are bursting with your bubbly-ness. so, yes. you should continue to entertain.

a few days ago was ruohan's birthday, and as ever, mitchell's greetings = epik.celebrated at 18 chefs after surprising her outside korean classroom. it's not what we planned previously, but, hope you really enjoyed it. enjoyed talking like we haven't been for a long time, but actually we met on a frequent basis, dont we? talking about frequent,stay-overs at su's. tsk tsk, hint hint. we're almost a family with all the family-meeting sessions, only we're not muslims. ha. but ruohan/we have been wearing not-short-shorts to her house after her father commented something to what we should wear to her house with regards to paying respects.ahhh. (chinchak) to you people. ^^ please continue to receive lots of love.i love how this sentence sounds. very koreanny. plus the (chinchak). dont really know how to spell the romanization properly, mianhe.

^^ let's go korea together someday.ought to listen to "please dont go" soon.

p.s congrats to SHINEE~ triple crowned, and that's the fifth time they won. (^0^)

p.s.s can somebody give me the link to dl HQ/HD performances? other than ruohan's link.cannot dl from megaload nor clubbox. T.T

2009-11-14T12:19:00.002+08:00

^^ bought rilakkuma cover ytd. *contented grin* plaza sing is the next orchard.

2009-11-11T22:42:00.003+08:00

yaye! SHINEE wins again. you dont know how proud im feeling for them now. please continue to receive more love~
onew is recovered.woohoo.but they might have spread their flu to me too.
cant sing rdd's high notes. T.T

it's okay.another excuse to keep quiet in school. lol. *emo.

joking.

k, bye.

2009-11-07T13:58:00.003+08:00

^^ shinee got their 2nd consecutive win on music bank. 3rd winning of 1st place on music shows. (^0^)Y

news is winning 1st place in orion charts for four days already. Y(^O^)Y

2009-11-01T15:41:00.002+08:00

woohoo! changed layout.

even though i ought to have my brain stuffed with chinese instead of SHINee stuff and cute taemin moments. lol. oh well.

OHHHHHHHHHHH. and actually i can change my blog title from "SHINE" to "SHINee".
haha! okay. spazzing moments should stop for today.

byebyeeee.

2009-10-27T02:06:00.002+08:00

400TH
plus plus plus post, since i once deleted quite a number of pages.

im suppose to edit some parts of pw just now. but it's 2.07am already.and i really dont know where to start editing.

what if one day you stumble upon this space, and realise there's nothing left. not even handsome pretty faces on my header.

heard the full version of my long awaited song. andddddddddd. it made my heart throbbed and shrunk at the same time. ahhhhh, it's suppose to be a sad love song, but because it's sang by you-know-who, my heart throbs the moment he sings.

these few days, there's always this lingering nostalgia in the morning and evening. it made me wanna walk to school and walk home.at first it was, nice, i guess. but after awhile, you wonder, there's not much point to it anyway.

._. how i wish time will stop ticking away when we're having chinese lessons.

sometimes it's really tiring to keep trying and trying.

bye.

2009-10-20T01:39:00.002+08:00

blogging after quite some time,eh?
alert : you can listen to all the songs i posted if you have the time. ^^

went to orchard with my mother just now, and then she had to accompany me to watch my jap movie. ^^ <<>>

eh, but the actual title is not even close to the actual one in japanese. << 余命一ヶ月の花嫁 >> it translates to something like... one month of marriage. or something close.

before watching, walked around kinokuniya. lol! life's simple pleasures~ then i feel like buying jap novels. even though i know that i dont really know HOW to read the entire book.ohhhhh! then there's rilakkuma 2010 planner already! SO NICE! lol. it made me kinda excited on the spot. really makes you want to grab the book and run.. :/

im really glad that i know some jap, if not i cannot decipher the title of the theme song of the movie. ^^

there you go.

i was talking about buying jap novels right? haaaa. actually there's a movie originated from comics,then novel, starring my favourites : 岡田将生 Masaki Okada / 井上真央 Mao Inoue. masaki okada is in this drama currently airing in japan, otomen, handsome and cute guy. meo inoue acted in hana yori dango and now acting with nino. so basically, i like them a lot. the movie will air on 24th oct in japan. i dont even know if they will air it in sg though. :/ oh well.

the theme song is also very nice. lol.

i will watch the anime of it if there's one. << 僕の初恋をキミに捧ぐ >>
this translates to : i give my first love to you. love stories. lol.

okay. other than that, please listen to them if you want to. i really love "Flumpool". other than yamapi and other johnny's, this is the first jap band that i really liked. haaaa. and i like songs with string instruments playing in the background.

2009-10-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

2009-09-30T23:29:00.002+08:00

if only it's raining money instead. :/

no, if only i live in japan. ^^ ( i've been saying this,haven't i)

no project work,
no promos,
no superficial classmates who borthered nothing but marks,
no worries on "how should i pre order stuff online",
no possibilities that i will go to school the next day without sleeping the day before due to me chionging project work when the next day, it didn't came up to good use,
no lazy teachers who kept cancelling our appointment with them,
nor teachers whom constantly hint students to just give up on promos and should never work any harder since you will only struggle and die in year two. tsk.

so, this is when fandom is of good use,besides spending tonnes on some useless stuff ( as perceived by many, who won't really understand the entire meaning behind all these fan-girling stuff ). fandom settles all the un-anticipation towards life. or maybe, they just alleviate the levels of helplessness faced.

ahhh, im just here to rant about things which i haven't told many about school.
facing them in school really turns me off.but, im actually considered lucky to have chinese lessons with cool people, and econs lessons with mdm peh.and perhaps when band resumes, i will have fun with msluo and the rest, ( if they ever turn up and produce a full-house attendance).

i shall hit the school library for self revision.

YOSH.

* please let them be lucky tonight, and many nights to come.
* please give me strength to pull through promos, despite feeling a bit paralysed.
* please... rain money for me. T.T (this is the most impt part of today's post.) LOL.

2009-09-20T03:58:00.004+08:00

This is suhaidah's new tattoo. she's all ready for hari raya with this. :D
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MALAYS~! and Muslims! ( this is for reshma ) lol!

my therapeutic session with ruohan ( and liuqing and a bit of suhaidah ) ended til 3am in the morning today. haven't been talking like that since ages. and i miss them already. :D

feel touched okay. ^^

and then there's this prawning trip on friday.
you can never imagine how fun and amusing was it to fish for prawns with the whole bunch of them, especially after 6 punishing hours of gp and chinese papers. it was a trip that lasted til 4am in the morning. lol. i've been sleeping on weird timings these days.

this is for those who'd understand. :) i watched ryo's special drama for <24hours>. it's just like another short version of . ryo just made the show worthy to watch. plus, there's cute yamada ryosuke inside too!

tml will be the last episode of buzzer beat. T.T time flies, and i really don't want the show to end.i will miss all the yamapi action badly, despite his exciting love life he has now. :/
but nonetheless, if he's surrounded with happiness,i think i will feel the same too. ^^

i guess this is the only outlet to express all these exploding emotions.

i used yamapi gif as my wallpaper and screensaver, and they started commenting. it's not that im bothered with their comments, but it's not your problem, isnt it. if yamapi's not perfect to you,it doesn't mean that he's not perfect at all. it doesn't seem like there's anyone much more perfect than him in school anyway. >:p
( p.s that is not a smiling face. )

going on,how i wish NEWS have something like arashi's , or... ya, you know what i mean. basically variety shows that are hosted by the NEWS members themselves.or maybe they should come out with new singles or.. do something for me to feel excited,while i torture myself with feeling negative in school for having nothing to anticipate.

and super girl is stuck in my head since monday, when the entire mv is broadcasted.
eunhyuk's one love too. hyukkkkkieeeee. :D

okay, that's all. i haven't accomplished much today. plus i've just messed up the entire room today. ( again) sigh. damn.

byeeeeee~ mdm wu is trying to be funny. :D
okaay, i should go watch jiyong's latest live now.

2009-09-12T16:00:00.001+08:00

urghhhhhhhh.not selected for ocip. tsk.
別にね
it'd be their loss.but i feel very cheated now. :/
they must be damn blind anyway.

2009-09-12T08:54:00.001+08:00

ブザー・ビート史上初６冠

夏ドラマ好きな作品→　ブザービート
好きな俳優→　山下智久
好きな助演→北川景子
気になった俳優→溝端淳平
気になった女優→貫地谷しほり
好きな主題歌→イチブトゼンブ

XD おめでとうございます! (^0^)Y

本当に嬉しいです。

for the above, BUZZER BEAT CLINCHED 6 DRAMA AWARDS THIS YEAR! (i know, it's a bit early right? )
im so proud of the entire cast!

Favorite summer drama: Buzzer Beat
Favorite Actor: Yamashita Tomohisa (naoki)( :D :D :D :D :D )
Favorite Supporting Actress: Kitagawa Keiko (riko)( :D :D :D :D )
Potential Actress: Kanjiya Shihori (mai) ( don't really know if i translated correctly for the title of award )
Potential Actor: Mizobata Junpei (Shuji)
Favorite Theme Song: Ichibu to zenbu

the week is ending, that really kills me.

2009-09-08T11:23:00.001+08:00

^^ yamapi and ryo are on their way to recovery, and they've started filming!~

fans went to visit him at the stadium for buzzerbeat, and some took candid pictures of him taking a megaphone to thank those fans who came that day and had to wait for hours outside the stadium.

really glad he's well now.somehow, those candid pictures make him feel realistic. it's like he's more than just any idol in screens. :)

im satisfied now. hahahaha.

2009-09-06T20:12:00.001+08:00

wahahahaha~ new NEWS' template. the boys in the yellow icons are stunningly mesmerizing right!? :D
rested at home for both saturday and sunday. watched my dramas, did some catching up with news' activities, and.. some blog template stuff.

get well soon yamapi and ryo! both caught some flu similar to H1N1. :/

meeting jessica toh tml, wahahaha. can't wait. :D

2009-08-29T01:21:00.002+08:00

promised myself to blog today, well, on friday night to be exact, so.. im here.
(another therapeutic session)

It's because of you guys, the night was so much easier to spend away. if only there's ruohan and suhaidah. ahhhhhhhhhh.we can buff up our gossips with so much more powerful words. and perhaps then, today won't be so much of a emotional burden. :/

was really glad that some band members turn up for today's practice. felt like knowing them a little bit more. intellectual people. :)

really glad to meet wonderful friends like ann, ruzzie, kenga, reshma , and ruohan in band. and im really glad that we're in the same cca. but, life now will be so much better with ruohan and suhaidah in yj. and maybe ziyuan too? hmmm, maybe not, since ziyuan's doing not bad in his projects now.

yamapi's photobook is now under my bed. im not opening it until promos are over though. ha? self made motivation. buzzer beat ep 7 is super nice. kinda served as another therapeutic session today. if only i get to meet someone like naoki, or yamapi, or even riko na~

im not going to rant much anymore.i'll just complain whatever happened in school today to my mother. didn't really mention anything to anyone in school, perhaps i didnt know who can i turn to at the point of time. since, it'd be damn irritating to hear all the rantings after a long day in school? i even msged my sister. lol? kinda pathetic.

in the end, i think i click most well with people having the same frequency of intellect, humour and personal values.

the end. i gave up searching on how to make pop up cards.

i am happy enough to live in my own world, with no pests that'll suck your blood dry.i'll just refrain myself from stepping into your zone of presence by a radial of 10 meters.

get a life please.

sorry for the unstructured list of sentences. please reconstruct the entire post however you like.
jya neeeeeeeee~

p.s and im starting to miss ruohan and suhaidah and yt band ppl already.

2009-08-22T19:06:00.003+08:00

counting down to monday~ date of arrival for +actmini sept issue.i have nothing much to talk about,unless you wanna hear my rantings for the past two days?

hmph.

the only thing that kept me alive for those two days( today included) is actually this coming monday and buzzerbeat naaaaaa~

2009-08-15T22:53:00.001+08:00

私の心はどきどきしました。めちゃ嬉かた。智久くは最高です。（＾０＾）Y

:/ wanna buy many things. rilakkumaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

じゃね。

2009-08-01T10:20:00.002+08:00

hohoho. watching buzzerbeat makes my heart pound very fast.heart throbssss~
anyway, my chinese compo is featured in the school library. pair worked with cedrick.so unexpected that it actually got featured? :/ you're suppose to take a picture of some random thing, and then write a story about it. there's another chinese compo that needs to be submitted... on monday? it is supposed to be dued yesterday though.

got some info during the workshop, and... school's declaring a holiday for good a levels results on FIRST OCT.

WE CAN GO CELEBRATE SU'S BDAY!~
as well as children's day, haha. ignighting the child spirit in us,past childhood for.. very long time.okay. not time. byeee.

2009-07-28T22:18:00.001+08:00

if there's anyone buying any rilakkuma stuff for me, i'd be happy.
hmmm. no? expected.

when a particular story is on repeat for many times, even if it's the most intriguing story, one will still get bored of it. the same applies to the story-teller.

why must it always be the same particular person who gets the shit all the time?
yes, all the time.