LONG POST ALERT.
cca stand down,dunno if there's
any plans for tml yet.
i'll be drinking tml,i guess.
it seemed that i've watched you grow up
all this while,but sadly to say,
time flies. time is like an arrow,whizzing past fast.
where as those lies are like, small little fruit
flies,hovering above,coming back even if you
wave them off.
i guess many'd like to see what a state
im in now.well,that's gd anyway.
i hope it doesn't matter anymore.
so all this while, the things said equaled to nothing
but comforting words. really nothing,
but words for compensation..
with the many songs playing at the background,
my mind is in a blank. walked home just now after
tuition. as always,the truth hurts.
lol! cliche sentence la!?
i've come to understand the way it is.
it takes both hands to clap,and
there is always no applause at the end of
the day.all these euphemism is stupid la.
mmm.understood.
can see..can hear..can process and analyse.
it just took me so long to get the whole picture.
this is not over something is done,
but rather,just take it that im.. slow?
one don't realise the ripples that a small
falling pebble causes.
looking back, i thought i wanted to believe.
reading through the things we said,
it doesnt mean anything anymore.
that's us,i guess.
and everything came out from you
wasn't really how you thought.
it's just another way of compensating.
it really took me too long to realise.
i thought it was you,who needs to realise.
life play such silly games.
you just got lost in the midst of time.
yes,i kept all chat logs.
read through them.found that im all but a clown.
maybe not a clown,but bluffing through.
i put on a strong front,
albeit the fact that im didnt really enjoy
those "discussions".
no point in re-doing the stupid tag
tad i lost anyway. *($&(^&&#
you've got them on ur side. and they
wont change their minds.
so there.i dont feel like planning anymore.
im in no position to do all these.
just blame me that im wadever you call it la?
so if those conversations are not getting you
interested,don play people out la.
wont start conversations again.